We don’t know why

As long as I don’t breathe I wont see you.
Sometimes, love isn’t enough
And we don’t know why
But everything happens for a reason
And even if that’s not the case
We have to believe it

It’s the only thing we can believe
When the loneliness sets in

And you can’t drink anymore
Because your world is blurred

And your breathing is shallowed
And the walls start moving
And you close your eyes
And the tears they burn
And the nails dig deeper
And you clench your jaw
And your noises muffle
And you sleep

But you never want to
Because you always wake up.

We don’t know why

Just Keep Writing

I was at a poetry reading last night and came across this thought of
Just Keep Writing
The people we look up to are not great, they are dedicated
They are good because when they don’t know what to do,
they do That Thing you think they’re good at instead of
Well, whatever you’re doing right now to not do
That Thing you want to be good at
I need to write when I don’t feel like it
Write for writings sake
Write when I have no feeling
And write when I have so much feeling nothing comes out
Write one word across ten pages hundreds of times
Until, something happens
And something will happen
Because out of one thousand poems
One, one has to be the one
It’s not greatness
It’s dedication
Or sometimes,
It’s just not knowing what to do
But doing That Thing anyway.

Just Keep Writing

Moving On(II)

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You were the reason I even went to that stupid site
You took a picture of me at 7am
After we stayed up all night
The first time I really ever held you tight
And I knew in that moment everything was going to be
All right
Two years have passed and a few months lay wasted
I wish I would have known then how all this ended
I don’t want to move forward but the link to the past
Has been broken
You wont return my texts and every one says
You’re much happier now
I could move on, I just don’t know how
All your things are in a box
Underneath a staircase, taped up
I keep having dreams of you while a beautiful girl
Sleeps next to me
I don’t know how to be alone
I don’t know what I need
I’ll just keep deleting the parts of me
that remind me of you
And hope eventually this hallowed feeling finally
Leaves.

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Come crash down around me

Everything all at once has come crashing down around me
I hear the trumpets roar in the tussled strands of hair
Underneath my furrowed brow
I can see it now as the thousands cry out
We are told to fight
For peace and equality, it’s just not what it’s meant to be
And we – we are not what – we are meant to be
There is so much more – out there –
Somewhere
In a child’s embrace or a 25-somethings naivety
That all of this will work out in the end
Everything all at once is coming together
Trembling together – we once stood
Weathered and torn
But alive
Everything all at once has changed
And I’m not so sure – it meant –
Anything.

Come crash down around me