Ending is hard

I never wanted this to end
Not like this
I don’t know where you went
And you wont even give me a light
To try and get through this dark tunnel
You made me into something I don’t recognize anymore
I survived for months in this maze
Surprising to me
As my friends yell that this is abuse
And that I deserve better
I want you to get better
To go back to how things were
I’m surrounded by questions and thoughts
It’s not my fault you can’t deal with yourself
And why would I want to be with someone
Who can’t seem to care about me?
Except for sometimes.
I lost myself somewhere in you
How do I know I even exist anymore?
Why did you do this to us?
What did I do?
Will you ever come back?
Will I let you?